Sabrina Huston doesn’t shy away from her painful past.
In fact, she does just the opposite.
The 27-year-old former Stephenville resident talks openly about the fact that she was raped four years ago.
“So many women have found themselves in a compromised state and it’s not easy,” Sabrina said during an interview with the E-T. “It’s a horror you wouldn’t wish on your worst enemy.”
Sabrina says her nightmare began as a fun evening out with a girlfriend on Oct. 17, 2014.
She and her girlfriend ended up back at Sabrina’s house where they ran into a neighbor and his cousin.
“We went to his house and hung out in the garage and played drinking games,” she said.
As the night came to an end, Sabrina admits that she had too much to drink, then allowed the neighbor to walk her home.
“I thought he was being a gentleman,” she said. “He was engaged so I felt safe.”
Sabrina says she doesn’t remember what transpired that night and believes she may have been drugged.
“I only remember bits and pieces of that night,” she said. “But the next morning when I woke up, I knew that I had sex. I was a virgin and had planned to save myself for marriage.”
The realization that she had lost her virginity to a man she hardly knew after a night of drinking, sickened her, but she kept the secret to herself.
At the time, Sabrina was teaching agriculture and had just purchased her first home in Burleson.
BAFFLING ILLNESS AND GOD’S GRACE
The day after the rape, Sabrina says she became violently ill and the nausea continued with no relief.
“I threw up so much that I lost 70 pounds,” she said. “I saw doctors all over the country. Nothing would suppress the nausea and none of the scans showed that anything was wrong.”
Two years later, she realized that it was the guilt and shame she felt over the rape that was making her sick.
“God told me that I needed to talk to my parents so that’s what I did,” she said.
Sabrina drove to Stephenville to tell them about the rape.
“I was so scared. I thought they would be disappointed and angry with me,” she said.
Instead, her parents offered their unconditional love and support.
That night Sabrina made the decision to put her Burleson home on the market and make a fresh start.
“My house sold in a week and I moved to Cleburne,” she said.
FORGIVING HERSELF AND MOVING ON
The road to healing has been a long one for Sabrina, but she is finally on the mend.
She still lives in Cleburne and is teaching 4th grade.
“After the rape I viewed myself as damaged goods, tarnished,” she said.
But with her family’s support and her faith in God, Sabrina says she is learning to love herself again.
“I had to forgive myself for becoming intoxicated to the point of allowing someone to take advantage of me and that’s hard,” she said. “I accepted Christ as a young child, but I didn’t fully understand God’s love for us until after I was raped.”
She has also forgiven the man she says violated her.
“I saw him at a restaurant in Burleson eating with his wife. He now has a family,” she said.
Sabrina never went to the police or filed charges.
Five months after the rape, Sabrina learned that she had contracted HPV.
“I have had pre-cancerous cells removed from my cervix and I’ve had to have checkups every six months,” she said. “It’s a constant reminder of what happened.”
Sabrina still doesn’t like to be in large groups and is wary of strangers, but she is determined to share her story in the hope of helping other young women dealing with shame and guilt following a sexual assault.
“God has given me this story to tell - and I am just His vessel,” she said. “I am an open book.”